December 2009
35 posts
i am just trying
not to smother youu.
and so you know what?
i am.
i am getting ready for work now. even if i can only see you for two minutes, that is ok. if you wake up to this, i will be there in about an hour.
all i want to do
is come see you again this morning.
i ate.
conflict.
every personal problem is man vs. something, but i’m wondering what my problem is when it’s me vs.
nothing.
i caught a glimpse
of myself in the window to my left. the christmas lights make my reflection pretty clear. because i was sitting back in a rocking chair releasing a yawn, my chest appeared sunken in and my image was distorted to look like an old man’s figure.
obviously, i do not look much like an elderly man, but inwardly i am starting to wonder. such big questions from such a minuscule circumstance and...
am i good?
yeah, i am.
having someone who is always there for you is at first a relief, then it becomes a sanctuary, but then it becomes home. You are the roof over my head keeping me from every storm. All roofs have leaks, but this is easily repaired. The skills to repair them come over time, but in this case have been acquired quickly. You will not lose them until you believe that there is no more...
the greatest things in life
often include lightsabers.
for example, my sister went upstairs because she thought she heard my niece mimi crying. instead she finds my nephew jacob curled on the couch crying like a baby, and her son evan standing over him with one of my lightsabers (yes, i said one of my lightsabers, you can reread it if you like, but at this point i think we are past that) clipped onto his belt loop.
...
goodbye work, hello pjs.
im so tired as of late
i have responsibilities piling up. priorities two through infinity are out of line (though one stays firm, that’s a constant).
i should be painting, or writing a paper, or maybe even eating,
at least showered.
but instead i plan on indulging in an early night’s sleep while i anxiously await our christmas.
i try to always live inthe present, but right now i ma floating free of my...
“i will never find anyone else that i could call home and mean it.”
you put the sun
in the greyest skies. and quite frankly, that’s the way i like it.
thank you for being the light in my life and keeping me warm on the coldest days.
i was about to give up.
i was about to throw in the towel.
i was about to give up on music, give up on recording, give up on the life i want.
first i received a pep talk from andrew hopkins. then michael smart wished me good luck, and jon waldron made an offer i could not resist.
i have struggled with the lack of them in my life to keep me going and keep me motivated. it’s been a big change and it is taking so...
oh ps. this song by the cliks is called “oh...
i'm busting out
of the secret blog life.
i have been keeping a secret blog for over a year. those who have seen it have kept it a secret. those who wish they had not seen it, have quickly forgotten it.
it is a simple formula, in which i have become the forgotten variable.
it’s as simple as this:
secretblog-secretlife=publicity+tumblr.
I will probably spend the first week pulling posts from my old...